And I ramble on and on...and on

I dropped off from blogging a whole month - many things to do, a lot to think about, that, plus the day-to-day things makes it hard to write without the thought that I could have been doing something else! Okay, so I admit, I'm not so good at keeping journals. If I would just put my thoughts into words, we'd get a lot of ramblings of broken sentences. The way the mind works is very fascinating. Well, I think mine is anyway - since I underestimate the ability of my own mind most of the time! I can start on one subject and things will get rolling and the ending will be quite different. I do a lot of teaching even when I called myself a 'sales person' when I worked at Chuayjuljit. I had to give the sales people reasons to get motivated, and my talk had to convince them. Well, sometimes it worked with certain people, and sometimes it worked with other people. Sometimes it took kind and encouraging words with a lot of praises, and sometimes I had to be pushy and nudging them a little or a lot, that also depends on who and when and where I worked with at the time. I just kept plugging away - my objective was to sell my products to the sales people, and to sell the idea of 'how-to-sell' along with the tools (yet, another how-to) so my people can sell my products for me. Everyone who's doing anything (or not) has to have some sales personality within her/him in order to survive. Now that I'm no longer in the sales business - I still see myself as a sales person, selling my product in which I truly believe. The product is my voice, my art, the love and the knowledge of the music - all the learning that accumulated over the years, and still going. I'm out here selling my product as a performer, and the tools in refining and putting the product together and make it your very own package - as a teacher. Singing is much more than talent. Yes, talent plays a big part, but one has to put other elements into the singing to make oneself a singer. Ever since I was young, I loved to sing, and it made me so happy just to sing. In fact, when I was a young adult and started to sing the 'proper' way, the joy of singing gradually decreased. The more we learn, the more important we need to keep everything balanced, or we can end up being miserable. Knowledge is only good when one knows all the how/where/when to apply it, otherwise, it's like digging a hole while letting yourself sink in it. Knowledge backfires if you serve it, instead of letting it serve you. Well, same with just about everything else, isn't it! I have to keep reminding myself that I can't let what I know become my own handicap - a baggage that I carry with me everywhere. And, at this point in life, having been there and done that, I can't help but knowing a lot, which makes it very easy to slip into the dark side, which draws out the cynical part of me. Cynicism = negativity = holding place = regression = oh boy, I've fallen and I can't pull myself up. The more I learn, the more I see, the more I say 'balance' Again, that goes into everything you do. You know how everyday when you get into the shower you just open your mouth, sing your heart out, when you finish with the shower you feel refreshing and have a sudden splurt of energy? Notice how 'happy' and 'relieved' you feel? That's the feeling I believe we all have to achieve and maintain.


Ha! I just gave a sample of how my mind travels from one subject to another! I've been rambling!!! I don't know what good this does to anyone but it's effective on me! Now I'm going back to my regular work with that refreshing thought as if I had just sung in the shower. May be I'll even sing - putting in all the know-how elements and the talent and the joy, 'as-if-I-had-just-sung-in-the-shower' Woohoo!!!!